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>> Tuesday, January 01, 2013



By this time, the whole world has probably counted down and celebrated the new year. When the clock struck twelve, my cousins and I jumped up and down, hoping that the jumping would add a few inches to our height, even if we knew that we've reached the peak of our vertical growth. After a New Year's dinner of pasta (for long life), chicken tacos (for a healthier lifestyle), buco pandan (for a sweeter year), lengua (for more buttery goodness... lol I've run out of ideas) and barbecue, we spent a few hours after midnight dancing our booties off on the Wii dance. I came to a realization that I don't go well with dance and I will never get to memorize the dance moves to What Makes You Beautiful.

I slept around 3 AM and woke up 7 hours after, trying to figure out what I should feel with the new year.

Should I be happy with the new year? Hopeful that a new year signals a fresh start? What goals should I have for the new year? What would this year's theme be?

Since 2006, I've noticed that my year could be summed up in a theme. 2006 was a new beginning, as I entered the working world. 2007 was the year I discovered the 60's. I got into The Bloomfields through a writing gig I did for an events company. I was reacquainted with the music of The Beatles. Hairspray came out. 2008 was the year of musicals. 2009 was a learning year because I enrolled in graduate school. 2010 was a year of concerts. 2011 was the travelling year as I went to Davao and Singapore.

2012 was a stressful year for me. I struggled through my practicum. Six meetings left in finishing my practicum, I suffered with a ruptured appendix and had it removed. I went through an operation and had a month-long recovery. Even availing the 3D/2N Hong Kong-Shenzen was stressful. My friends and I only enjoyed the Hong Kong trip when we extended for a day and we had control of our time.

So what does 2013 have for me?

I think 2013 is a year of uncertainty for me. I don't know if I'll be able to finish my thesis first semester of this year. I am still waiting for a thesis adviser. I do not know how I will proceed with my thesis because I do not have samples and my topic requires teaching a set of grade 6 students.

I do not know if I will be able to successfully be on top of the projects at work.

I do not know what I really want to do for the rest of my life and if I should start on them right now.

Maybe I'm not excited for 2013 because I'm unsure of what it holds for me. Should I be daring with my decisions? Should I drop everything and make new goals? Should I be willing to make changes? Am I willing to let go of comfort zones?

Little Mix's song might be saying something:
Change, change your life, take it all
You’re gonna use it to become what you’ve always known


One thing's for sure: I am not going to let 2013 finish without putting out a fight. I'll be fighting for a higher purpose and aim for excellence.

It's not a Happy New Year because I don't feel any different, nor have I any new goals. But I'm going to welcome 2013 with a bang and a challenge myself to break free from uncertainties.

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